my misunderstanding

I misunderstood you,
I thought you said...
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Life's too short
To feel like this
To feel
It's the everything
And nothing
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I solicit
With all the words
Possessed
Cast to distance
Like star light
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I'm left
In this well
Each grappled toss
Revealing more
Unbearable feelings
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My field is vast
Feet buried
Seeing through weeds
Flowers
Too far away
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My heart
Stuck on one beat
Then two
Blood
Fills my head
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Swallowed
By sunlight
My gray light
Finds its place
Touching time and tide
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I act out
As me
Hoping that's enough
To hold on
To what is there
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...I misunderstood,
I just keep saying stuff