October 14, 2010

psychology of losing

I'm tired
I can't tell you
How I feel

These words
These
Words
Insufficient
In artistry
Unrecognized
In reason

I'm tired
Of digging
For the right words
Only to sound
Stupid
Or needy
Or desperate
Or just wrong
When
I
Am
Not

I'm tired
Of exploring
The depths
Of caverns
And canyons
Untouched
Until you

And you
Are no longer here

But the words
These words
Continue on
Looking for
Their meaning
My meaning
Waiting for
Some grand reward
That doesn't exist

This is still
Not right
What I write

My tired search
For accurate
Transliteration
Of what's inside

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